Never Doing Nothing
 | I always find it interesting when I get into the office on a Monday, and as I am in the lunchroom getting my half-caf coffee, and I make the Monday Morning Greetings. |
"Hi, Good Morning" I'll say.
"Good Morning", They Say back.
"So did you have a good weekend?" I ask.
"Aahhh, it was okay" They say.
"Did you do anything interesting?" I ask.
"Nah, just laid around the house. Nothing great." They say.
"So how was yours?" They will ask me back.
"Oh, it was okay." I will respond. Leaving out a ton of information because I don't want Them to know that I usually have really fun and fulfilling weekends.
I could say "Oh, I did some volunteer work, I saw some great movies, I read a really good book, I had dinner at a great restaurant, I went out for coffee, I went to church on Sunday and the sermon was really good, I updated my website, I did some Meditation, and I played with the Cat."
(Yes, all this... while finishing up the battle with Breast Cancer.)
But I just don't want it to look like I am having to much fun, when their life seems so boring. So I don't mention it.
I know I'm not saving the World, or curing diseases ... but at least I am doing Something.
And then theres the other thing, I don't understand why people spend their lives doing Nothing.
Especially people who live in a big city like Los Angeles - the world is right outside our door practically.
Frankly, my life is not my Job. I like my Job. But its main function is to allow me to have some money to do some of the things I really enjoy.
So when I am not at my job .... I am doing some else.
Not Nothing.
Years ago, I had friend who I would run into often at church events. I would ask her: "So what have you been up to lately?"
And she would always say, without fail: "Oh, Nothing."
How can you do "Nothing" ?
Do you lie on your couch and stare at the ceiling?
Well thats still something.
If you vegetate in front of the TV set... thats still something.
I came to the conclusion that she really wasn't doing Nothing.
Her opinion of her Life, and the things that she did, was that they were all Nothing.
I guess this is all starting to hit home, as I am trying to learn to Meditate. And trying to Pray more.
I am still reading the book "Taking Jesus Seriously - Buddhist Meditations for Christians" by John Cowan.
I thought that since I like to Do so much, and am always busy doing Something - it would be a good thing for me to slow down and meditate.
I thought that Meditation would be doing Nothing.
And the more I try to Meditate, I realize it is doing Something.
Being quiet and Still and listening for Gods voice, it a really difficult Something to do.
And it makes me more aware of how precious each moment of life is.
And that I don't want to ever do Nothing.
I always want to be doing Something.
